White Flag.

I surrender. I surrender my emotions to the one person I care and love the most. I have given in to the fact that I am truly broken. You had my heart and I believe you still have it in the grasp of your gentle hands. There are many faces in the crowd watching our every moves, wondering what would happen next. But what is next? I made a mess of situations for us and that is why I could understand the things you said and did. But I am at lost.. at grief even. At lost for words and at grief for the lose of those words. I put up a front for those who don't know me, but those who do, I know they can see right through me. And I know you can too. My heart is so weak and frail and I'm afraid of what the next step could/would be. I feel as if I had failed myself for putting myself in this state. I need a break from life.