Just that.

As the summer flies by, the nights seem colder. A bit of loneliness appears across my mind, and it's like I've lost it all. I sit.. wondering, wishing, thinking about my future. And though, it seems to others, that I cannot take hold of my emotions. I believe that I can. I believe that who I am, is what makes me stronger each and everyday. And if that's something you cannot accept, than I cannot accept you. I've dealt with everyday issues & issues that shouldn't have even occurred. But it's things like that, that make me feel a little more wiser. This summer, I learned that I've been guarding my heart for quite awhile now and I find it hard to trust people in different situations. I'm asking for reassurance, and although it seems a bit much.. I believe those that "love" me, can do just that.

hurt again & again.

I didn't think it would turn out this bad, I mean I knew I was down at first. But I didn't think I would be so twisted up inside. I want to let him go, because it's what he wants... but my heart won't let up. I fell too hard. And everything I do reminds me of him. My days are filled with people, but it still feels so lonely. I know I can't change your mind, but I wish I could've keep you mine. I'll just keep it to myself, because I don't know if I should speak to you or not. I don't know if you want to talk to me or not. Give me a sign.





Why do parents have to be so.. I don't even know >.<
I feel like a big let down. I can't do anything right for them. :[

Track.

So many empty pieces left over time,
I didn't know loving you would become a crime.
My heart was locked up and you had the key,
I never thought you'd just get up & flee
Forever & a day was always on my mind,
when two became one, we would combine.
You took me forgranted and you hurt me so well,
without even knowing it, the harder I fell.
I gave you my all and all the strength I had left,
but my heart went missing due to theft.
I believed your lies and all the things you said,
I was your puppet dangling on a piece of thread.
Til' this day I still cannot figure you out,
you left me to travel down an empty route.
I don't think it was supposed to end up this bad,
cos you were the best friend I ever had.





I'm back on track though.

Rants [:

This laptop screen is ridiculous! Omgooodnesss!
It's super cracked, if only you could see it. LOL.
I can barely see shit, all the black lines and what not. damn.
It's super hot & I'm super lazy :D LOL.





& Honestly I don't think it was meant to be this bad.
But goodbye to you, it was nice knowing you [:

Sometimes.

our lives begin to end when we become silent about the things that matter.


How did I give you my whole heart so stupidly? Two years. Two years you deceived me, used me, broke me, & made me cry. Two years is a long time to have someone fool me this way. Two years is a long time to not notice how stupid I was. On the outside looking in, everyone could see the whole picture. But you blinded me, you made me believe that you'd always be there. You made me crawl and beg for every ounce of love you could ever give me. I lost my self in the process but there wasn't anything or anyone I wanted more. I chose to stay... through the hurt and the strain. But one day, it was all over. I stayed by your side because in my heart you were still my most profound friend. You continued to deceive me, use me, break me, & make me cry. How did I not see it coming? How did I let you hurt me this way? Why did I help you just to be treated this way? But you know what the most stupid part of this is? I still want to help you.41707, will always be important to me.