Phone Crazed.

MY BALANCE IN LIFE IS FUCKING UP!

So today was the CSUN Placement test. >:O It was facking boring! lol. Me and Terry were basically falling alsssseeeepppppp readinnnng that shiiiiet! lol.

And then I talked to my cousin at her work. Agh, it's beeen sooo long since i've seen her or talked to her. whatev's.

So I got a crappy phone... til my birthday :/ And I currently don't have my simcard. -___- so yeh. TALK ABOUT TEXT WITHDRAW! >:O I can't text people! I really freaking miss my blackberry.

Agh why why why why why! Why me?! I thought I was becoming a better person?... is that not enough? What am I supposed to do? I like give everyone bad luck now. Ever since Quan broke up with me, and I realized I needed to walk away. Wtf, isn't that a good thing? Why is everything turning out badly for everyone else around me? I'm sooo sorry :[ I'm a failure.


How can you miss something you never had?
Seriously. Agh, confused!.... it's too soon.

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What started out to be a good day ended miserably.

I started out by picking up Linda & Terry for school. And everything at school was going well, I got my perfect attendance award and a Toblerone[: Ate lots of junk food. Talked to people.

Visited Sammy for a bit. Went to get sushi. Went to Galleria. and BAM! there it happened. My phone was stolen. :/ Everyone ran around looking for it. But it was no where to be found, and securities had no lead on it. There was no use in looking for it anymore.

We dropped Barry off at Skateland for work. And he ran and told us to keep his phone cos he text my phone saying to call him back.<3 But yeah, it's very unlikely someone WOULD FUCKING GIVE THE PHONE BACK! Ugh now I can't text anybody nor talk to anybody. Now Barry will be a loser with no one texting him, lmfao jkkkkk<3

yeah, i still have my sense of humor.

Anyways, I got home and my dad bitched at me. He exclaimed that losing my phone was my fault and he doesn't care if I need a new phone. He's blaming me for everything right now, and I am so sick and tired of it.

Strength

I am pretty sure everyone is proud of my progress and proud of the obstacles I am going through. With everyone's words of wisdom, I now know that I will never be alone. That if I ever had a hint of doubt, to just look back at my friends. I am no longer afraid to be alone, nor afraid to face every new day. I am more strong now then ever before. It has been something I've been longing for, and with everyone's help I am slowly accomplishing it. Although, at times it is hard for me to get by, I always reassure myself that this isn't as bad as I make it to be. I will become the independent person that I needed to be. I can finally fly free, and be open to new things. College here I come[:

I'm slowly finding balance again. Thank you to everyone that helped me realize my true strength. Thank you for letting me know that I wasn't alone, and that I shouldn't be afraid of anything. I couldn't be anymore grateful to know that. Thanks to the people who stayed by my side, to the people that text me to keep me company, the people who called me to keep me company. You guys are one in a million. Seriously<3



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