Some people just don't have enough logic or sense. I end up caring too much.
Sheesh.
IT'S A TRAGEDY !
Can someone teach me how to like... not care?
Sheesh.
IT'S A TRAGEDY !
Can someone teach me how to like... not care?
Friday, August 28, 2009
Sky.
"Cos i keep pouring out all of my love, hoping you'd fill me up. But you're leaving me, you're leaving me alone."
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Save it.
Action.
Open up the curtains & let the movie roll,
Watch as two beings become whole.
The beginnings are slow but steady,
Love? They aren't sure if they're ready.
Scene 1.
The feelings are mutual & all is equal,
but it turns upside down in the sequel.
Hearts are broken, they fight & they fall.
They hope that they won't lose it all.
Scene 2.
Rising above it doesn't seem so hard,
cos they've done it before without regard.
But when one loves the other more,
All hell is broken loose & it's time for war.
Scene 3.
Broken promises delayed over time,
Feeling distressed & way old past their prime.
"Why don't you care" she said,
& with some last words, he fled.
Scene 4.
Left with nothing and no one,
The healing process is on run.
She finds comfort in all the small things,
& she accepts what other's have to bring.
Scene 5.
Clueless and bound to his friends,
His car & his homies are all he amends.
What happens when he realizes he's alone?
His full proof planned life is now blown.
Scene 6.
She began to move on & found a new man,
He tried to come back but the faster she ran.
"I love you & miss you", he decides to say,
But he's decieved her and she can't stay.
Scene 7.
I bet you'ved guessed it, she fell for his tricks..
Back to square one, cos she's not who he picks.
Dark & stormy nights she spent alone,
cos he had not come home, she should've known.
Scene 8.
It's over & done, she's waited too long..
When things were never right all along.
Never again will she ask for his love in return,
It's her love and trust that he must earn.
End.
Although it seems a bit cliche,
Trust me this life is put on replay.
I've seen it a million times before,
Cos the girls always come back for more.
that took me an hour & a half to write o.o sheesh.
Open up the curtains & let the movie roll,
Watch as two beings become whole.
The beginnings are slow but steady,
Love? They aren't sure if they're ready.
Scene 1.
The feelings are mutual & all is equal,
but it turns upside down in the sequel.
Hearts are broken, they fight & they fall.
They hope that they won't lose it all.
Scene 2.
Rising above it doesn't seem so hard,
cos they've done it before without regard.
But when one loves the other more,
All hell is broken loose & it's time for war.
Scene 3.
Broken promises delayed over time,
Feeling distressed & way old past their prime.
"Why don't you care" she said,
& with some last words, he fled.
Scene 4.
Left with nothing and no one,
The healing process is on run.
She finds comfort in all the small things,
& she accepts what other's have to bring.
Scene 5.
Clueless and bound to his friends,
His car & his homies are all he amends.
What happens when he realizes he's alone?
His full proof planned life is now blown.
Scene 6.
She began to move on & found a new man,
He tried to come back but the faster she ran.
"I love you & miss you", he decides to say,
But he's decieved her and she can't stay.
Scene 7.
I bet you'ved guessed it, she fell for his tricks..
Back to square one, cos she's not who he picks.
Dark & stormy nights she spent alone,
cos he had not come home, she should've known.
Scene 8.
It's over & done, she's waited too long..
When things were never right all along.
Never again will she ask for his love in return,
It's her love and trust that he must earn.
End.
Although it seems a bit cliche,
Trust me this life is put on replay.
I've seen it a million times before,
Cos the girls always come back for more.
that took me an hour & a half to write o.o sheesh.
Monday, August 24, 2009
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Saturday, August 22, 2009
FRONTIN'
I'd be a liar, if I said I was strong. I'd be a liar if I said I don't cry every night. I'd be a liar if I said I could make it through this alone. But I guess, I'll just become this liar. Cos lying, only hurts me. If people don't know, than it won't hurt.. right?
If you never realized what you had until it's gone than why would people still choose to walk away. It never makes much sense to me. Am I the only one that's hurt? That's crumbling in pieces?
If you never realized what you had until it's gone than why would people still choose to walk away. It never makes much sense to me. Am I the only one that's hurt? That's crumbling in pieces?
Friday, August 21, 2009
Back in the habit
I feel like I'm back in the habit of having mood swings. I didn't want this to happen. But I can understand why. I've been undermining myself and taking less precautions as to my health. I'm running on barely any sleep. And I've yet to find a job. School starts on Monday, and I am tired shitless. I don't know how I'm going to get through this.
And how do you miss someone so much when you've only known them for a few months? How do you cope with this feeling? The feeling of hopelessness and anticipation. I'm waiting and wishing. I'm thinking and breaking. I'm hearing songs and relating to it. I am lost. I fell to the ground this time, and there's just no getting back up.
And how do you miss someone so much when you've only known them for a few months? How do you cope with this feeling? The feeling of hopelessness and anticipation. I'm waiting and wishing. I'm thinking and breaking. I'm hearing songs and relating to it. I am lost. I fell to the ground this time, and there's just no getting back up.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Acceptance.
I think this is the part where I accept that I'm heartbroken. I think this is the part where I have to accept that Quan is just my best friend. & this is the part where I accept the things Andy wants to do.. in order to better his life. But just because I'm accepting these things, doesn't mean I have to forget the memories right? It doesn't mean I can't reminisce and look back right?
This is the first blog, that I will spend my time writing in. The first one you will see what I am feeling. Or just what I miss.Through lyrics, through pictures, through my life.
The things I wrapped up in a box, I can't bare to throw it away. Every once in awhile I look back at it, and my heart feels warm again. It's like we have the love all over again.
He took care of me when I had chicken pox.
He spent two days making me food and keeping me company.
"We had it all
We were just about to fall
Even more in love
Than we were before
I won't forget
I won't forget
About us
But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it"
He drove his car, with no a.c, and took me to see my best friend. We drove many miles, and once we got her we drove even more to a lake. It was amazing.
He woke up early and picked up my best friend and came back to the valley to surprise me. We went Mini Golfing & ate sushi that day.
We spent so much time together you don't even understand & if i were to post every picture I would run out of room. When I look back at it, he did so much for me. He took me everywhere, paid for everything, & stood by my side. I took him forgranted and in turn I got this reckless him. I deserved it. But needless to say, I love that boy. And whoever has him next better treat him right.
Andy, stepped into my life when I felt like I couldn't do much more with my life. He gave me more understanding and more courage. & I'll forever be grateful for that. Grateful for having him to talk to everyday, seeing him when he was in the valley, picking me up in san jose, even coming to see me late at night., webcamming with me so i'd be less bored, texting me, calling me. & I accept that you don't want to talk to me now. But when you do.. I am here. It's unfortunate because I considar you one of my closest friends. And it's even more unfortunate because I still have feelings for you o.o But that part doesn't matter.
well i'm tired of thinking about everything. So I'll end it here. I doubt anyone would read this anway. I'm gonna try to be stronger, but if and doubt at least I'll have blogging to calm me in some sort of aspect right? [:
This is the first blog, that I will spend my time writing in. The first one you will see what I am feeling. Or just what I miss.Through lyrics, through pictures, through my life.
The things I wrapped up in a box, I can't bare to throw it away. Every once in awhile I look back at it, and my heart feels warm again. It's like we have the love all over again.
He took care of me when I had chicken pox.He spent two days making me food and keeping me company.
"We had it all
We were just about to fall
Even more in love
Than we were before
I won't forget
I won't forget
About us
But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it"
He drove his car, with no a.c, and took me to see my best friend. We drove many miles, and once we got her we drove even more to a lake. It was amazing.He woke up early and picked up my best friend and came back to the valley to surprise me. We went Mini Golfing & ate sushi that day.
We spent so much time together you don't even understand & if i were to post every picture I would run out of room. When I look back at it, he did so much for me. He took me everywhere, paid for everything, & stood by my side. I took him forgranted and in turn I got this reckless him. I deserved it. But needless to say, I love that boy. And whoever has him next better treat him right.
Andy, stepped into my life when I felt like I couldn't do much more with my life. He gave me more understanding and more courage. & I'll forever be grateful for that. Grateful for having him to talk to everyday, seeing him when he was in the valley, picking me up in san jose, even coming to see me late at night., webcamming with me so i'd be less bored, texting me, calling me. & I accept that you don't want to talk to me now. But when you do.. I am here. It's unfortunate because I considar you one of my closest friends. And it's even more unfortunate because I still have feelings for you o.o But that part doesn't matter.well i'm tired of thinking about everything. So I'll end it here. I doubt anyone would read this anway. I'm gonna try to be stronger, but if and doubt at least I'll have blogging to calm me in some sort of aspect right? [:
about me
I dress up, but I'm not all girlie. I have a lot of clothes but I'm not a trendsetter. I party, I drink, & I pop but I'm not an alcoholic or a druggie. I play my games right, sorry if you think that makes me a slut. I get my work done in school, but that doesn't mean I'm a nerd. I'm the realest girl you'll ever meet. I make mistakes within 3.4 seconds. I stay strong for myself & for my best friends: Andy Panda, Quan N., Sarah Ung, Terry Ngo, Natalie K. & Karen Roquez. ♥ I take life day by day, and although it gets difficult at times, I've learned that it'll pay off in the end. I fight my own battles and wipe away my own tears. I'm an independent thinker, but a dependent soul. I put people before myself, and I'd be lying if I told you I didn't care about you. I'm always down for my friends. I forgive easily, but I never forget. Only strong hearts can handle me.[:
i needed a place to save it. rofl
i needed a place to save it. rofl
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Broken Promises.
I should have known, the chase was only for awhile. The phone calls and texts were only when I was chasing after someone else. Made me wait for you. But I only found more heartache. But I found that I am no longer in love with you. I am in love with the you that loved me back and I am in love with the memories. I hope to find one day, that someone could love me as much as I love them. Because after all this, I think I deserve just that. No more best friends, but a man. A real man. A man who is willing to go through all depths to be with his woman. I need just that.
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