Reminisce

Today feels different, today feels like one of those days where I want to reminisce. I want to remember the days where I was happy being in love. Better yet, I want to feel what it felt like. I want to love and be loved back. I had been in denial for so long, and I can't help but wonder how or why I would do that to myself. If it hurts, then it hurts. Why should I have to hide it? No one or nothing could replace those feelings I had with him. I am at ease, yet remorseful. Although some things became easier, I don't want things to be easy. The challenges made me stronger. I'm so hurt and so lost. I miss those days. I miss them so much that I feel crazy. I feel crazy for wanting something that will never happen again.