Though my heart has healed in some aspects, I find myself dwelling on the past. The reasons for the way I am only leads back to him. I've grown into this person I am now because of him. I'm not saying it as a bad thing, I'm saying it as a miraculous thing. I grew up to be someone stronger, and weak all at once. I used to be so strong but when it comes to him, I am so weak. My heart is frail and it has shattered into pieces. I can't find a way to mend it or come to a compromise with it. I just know that when it hurts, it hurts. It can't be denied and it can't be forgotten. I'm over it and not at the same time... does that even make sense? I want to be with him again but I also don't. Is this the process of getting over someone?